First we were told that our paperwork would be through the ministries by the end of December and we would likely travel around January 10th. Then we were told our LOI was coming somewhere between January 14th and January 21st. NOW, we were just told that there is a two week delay and we shouldn't expect to travel until FEBRUARY. I cannot even begin to explain to anyone how angry and how much pain I feel. I want this misery to end. I feel nothing but despair. I am very sadly angry at God for not hearing my prayers and allowing this journey to continue to be the most horrendous experience in my life only second to the death of my brother.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
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Don't blame God, blame Orson!
I know it's frustrating, but trust me, God has his own plan for you, no matter how much you want it differently. I'm sorry this is so hard for you, but trust me, it is worth it in the end. It is a small price to pay for a beautiful human life you will love forever.
I couldn't have said it better myself. God does have his own plan for you. You've traveled a hard road, and only by leaning on Him will you get through it. Your son IS out there, and you'll be with him soon. And then, all of this will merely be a blip on the screen. Hang in there!
I think most of us in the adoption world have experienced hardships, pain, setbacks, grief, and pure heartache. BUT I think we can all say that we had to let go and turn it over to God as hard as it was. It was very hard for me to except that I was not in control and that God had a plan for me. To this day, I still grieve the loss of our first children (referrals), but I also melt when Mateo's deep almond eyes look up at me and Natalia's icy blues look my way. I know my children are meant to be mine. I know the waiting is so incredibly hard, but your child will be with you soon and these moments will seem so far gone... We are all thinking of you!
I am so sorry Dawn. That's all I can say. I understand your anger. Maybe we will be in Almaty together after all. That would be great.
I'm so sorry. I know this is so disappointing to you. I do agree that God has a plan and when this is all over, you will look back and say, "Oh, I see it now."
I have a project my kids made on my kitchen window shelf. It is a little picture frame with a puzzle piece in it. It says, "I only see one piece of the puzzle. God knows the whole picture." That has helped me so many times when disappointment and frustration invades my life. I know that's how you're feeling now. Hang in there. Hopefully this is the last postponement.
wow....how absolutely frustrating. I would feel exactly as you are feeling if we were put through the ringer like you have been.
I'm afraid my language would be even harsher if I had been treated like this. Hang in there somehow, someway. Your dream will come true, it really will.
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