I feel like a broken record. I am sick of waiting. I want this nightmare to end! We get a lot of questions about the next court date (May 30th) and what that will result in. Hmmm...anybody's guess is as good as ours. Our agency can only speculate since they have never been through this before either!
I have a lot to deal with emotionally right now. I am undecided what, if anything, I want to do about my best friend and her mother from here forward. My little sister, age 15, has also decided now was a good time to tell me I am an awful sister and not there for her (which is a little difficult since I am estranged from my parents). Psychologically, the accumulation of these events is taking a toll on me.
Thank God...my hubby is such a great man! He is my rock and I love him so, so much! He really is the only person in my life who has never let me down (and I am not talking about the "forget to put the seat down" kind of let down). He is loyal, loving, patient, kind and the best friend anyone could ask for. I love you Joe!
Monday, May 21, 2007
Waiting, Waiting, Waiting...
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I don't know if it's spiritual warfare during these times or something. My sister pulled a stunt like that when we were going thru this as well. She saying how I was a bitch when we were kids & she thinks I am as an adult. Um, I haven't lived near here in 17 years, and we rarely coorespond...even by email (by her choice, as she's never wanted a close relationship! I told her to drop the attitude or I'd drop our relationship. I told her to get counseling if she has childhood issues. During the most stressful time in my life, I certainly didn't need this sort of crap. She chose to not be close to me for decades, then out of the blue in the middle of my turmoil, she'd give me this "bitch" crap. I told her I didn't need it, she could change her tune, or I would be more than happy to spend my time and energy with people who treat me well.
She immediately changed her tune, for the better. She just needed to hear some boundaries.
Dawn,
I agree with Esther, Joe and you! There are times when all of us need to say to others, "I care about you and value our relationship, and I need to take care of myself right now." I am so glad that Joe is such a wonderful support; I hope that together, you can keep your armor intact and repel any negativity others send you. I cannot imagine how hard it must be to continue to hang in there. I feel sure that there must be some resolution to your limbo soon. We are thinking about you, Stephen and Joe, every day!
genevieve
This is hard to take all at one time, Dawn.....I don't understand it and so I have no answers except the LOVE the LORD has for you has not changed even though it may "feel" like He is not there and has abandoned you.....some day you will look back at this dark time and I believe you will see how the Lord was there for you and carried you through this. Praying Stephen comes home soon.
Beckie
Sometimes it seems the darkest just before the light of day. You do not need the emotional turmoil from your "friend" and sister; is it possible to ignore/avoid them and the entire issue for now? Put your energy and strength into your relationship with Joe so you can support each other as you wait. And as always, our prayers are with you, Joe and Stephen.
I think that adoption is hard...very hard...and, the longer it goes, the harder it is...and, Satan doesn't like it one bit, our commitment to "redeem" a soul for Christ. I am so sorry that you have to go thru this. I am so glad that you have Joe to be your rock and strenght when you need him. I am sorry that your sister is giving you a bad time, but hey! she's only 15!! Remember when YOU were 15???? I wouldn't put too much stock in what she says...just continue to be the gracious, loving sister that you are, is spite of the difficult circumstances...she will grow up someday. Hang in there, thanks for posting and keeping us current in the saga...Karla
This is just my little opinion - take it for what it's worth, but it sounds like the people who were used to getting a lot of your energy are lashing out because your focus has shifted rightly to your son. My guess is that you are usually the leader in the relationship, and these people don't know how to step up to the plate and lift you up at a time when you need it.
With that being said, I think you are very right to focus your energy on yourself and your husband right now. Keep loving and encouraging each other. Even though we don't know each other personally, I've seen your strength through this process, and you're one tough couple (even though it doesn't feel like it right now). You will survive this, and if the friendships are never repaired, God will give you new friends to replace them.
Praying for you, Joe, & Stephen,
Regina
{{{hugs}}} I'm sorry the wait is so hard!
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