My Favorite Holiday

I have always loved Easter...obviously as a child it is so much fun to hunt for eggs and eat lots of chocolate:) As an adult though it is one of the few holidays that has not become too commercial and there is no pressure of what you "should" be doing on this day. It is a day to simply focus on our Father and the precious gift of salvation through His son.

I am so sad though. I miss Stephen so, so much. All I can do is go through the pictures over and over. Many have asked whether or not I am able to see him until court - sadly, NO. I hate it. There is already nothing to do here - seeing him was the only thing I had to look forward to each day.

Joe and I are hoping to get some inside information on "our chances" by tomorrow. We want to know if this is really a losing battle or if there is hope. I need to get out of here before I lose my mind. This inside information will be pretty conclusive. Apparently, most of these court decisions are made way before you even get to court. We will make our decision based on whatever information we receive.

Sadly, the "crazy lady" who e-mailed me when she was angry about losing her "referral" has arrived and I was told she was only shown unhealthy children. Orson apparently told her after she complained to him that he doesn't give a shit about her! WOW! I do pray that there is a child here for her. There must be at least one girl or boy who needs a home. As hurt and angry as I was at her horrible words...I do not wish this kind of pain on anyone.

Here is an update on my so-called best friend: she called me the day after we found out about Stephen's mother coming back and had the gall to complain to me about how I was treating her! Needless to say ~ the conversation was not pretty. She had the nerve to ask me "What did you expect me to call you every day?" Ummm...no, but once a week would have been nice - especially after I told you I needed you to call! Our friendship is over. I have no regrets and will never second-guess my decision. There are simply some things that friends must be there for - and this was certainly one of them. I would not give my friends anything less than I am asking in return. The timing could not have been worse, but I have other things to worry about right now. I forgive her, but she has lost the privilege of my friendship forevermore. I would rather be alone than be in a relationship that the other person does not value.

P.S. ~ Check out "Today's Verse" at the top of my blog. It is the perfect prayer for the circumstances and I am going to say it over and over until court.